Feeling Frazzled

 I'm feeling frazzled.

Today, I sat down with SK and in tears told him I don't think I can do this class.  We talked for a little while and he will wholeheartedly support me in whatever I choose to do. 

I reasoned: 

1.No one's life will be affected - at all - whether I teach that class, or someone else does.

2.These are the last months of our mission, and I don't want to feel this stressed for this special time.  And life in the mission is stepping up....significantly.

3. Two hours after I resign, no one will ever think of me again from this program.

4. I already love several class members.

5. I love preparing the lesson material.

6. I am loath to quit.  It may be pride.  I just don't like the whole idea of giving up.

7. When things have been difficult for me before, the Lord has helped me, and by perserveering I have been blessed.


I have had the day to ponder and work away at the lesson.  I have had two sympathetic answers to my anguished plea for help.

A man in Wales who teaches the same course, a former mission president, and one who has designed a powerpoint presentation for this course (I have used some of his slides), will go over the powerpoint and other finer points on Monday with me.  We have scheduled an hour.

Another man and his wife - missionaries serving in Manchester with young adults, and doing a lot with the young missionaries, like we are doing, said, he and his wife will spend an hour going over the grading with me.  It is taking me hours to read everything and figure out how to get the grades from one program to another.  It is overwhelming.  I have asked SK to sit in with me.  He sometimes understands technical things better than I.

We have had a couple of zoom meetings today with the young missionaries and have another in 5 minutes (9 p,m.) and then I'm going to bed.  A good night's sleep will help, and just rising tomorrow morning to this beautiful city in this "fair and pleasant land" will give me the motivation to start again.  I do so love this place.

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melissa said…
Things always look better in the morning, right?!
May 9, 2021 at 9:34 PM
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